Hearing God

The following was written about a year ago. Somehow, it got archived and not posted.  It's still pertinent for me today, so I am posting it now.

When you are in relationship with someone, you talk. I have about a 40 minute drive to work every day and that's when I spend intense time in relationship with God. Sometimes, my conversation is with Holy Spirit and sometimes Jesus, but most of the time it's the one I affectionately call "Daddy" who chats with me on my way to and from work.

I feel like most people have some kind of conversation with God at some point in their lives. I know lots and lots of people "pray". I wonder if their prayer looks like a shopping list they park on the doorstep of heaven, or if it's a time of begging and pleading during whatever crisis they are going through. I have a feeling that it's a crap shoot for many. A time to ask questions and wonder if anyone out there hears them. For me... my relationship with Daddy took time to develop. Even getting to a point of calling Him Daddy was through He and I spending lots of time going over my past religious views I had of Him and buffing off the rough edges I had developed. I'm happy to say that our conversations are no longer one sided. I have learned to listen, as well as talk, in the time we spend together.

The other day, I was having one of those days where my spirit was churning. For me, it is a nervous feeling that seems to have no source of entry I can pinpoint. I got in the car and asked Daddy, "Who am I?"  There was silence.  When I hear nothing in return, I rephrase the question. "How do you see me?"  Immediately, I had thoughts flow through my mind about conversations I've had with Him in the past. I was reminded of all the places He has taken me through and all the things that He showed me that I am, but still my spirit felt uneasy. "Who am I today? How do you see me today?" Bingo! There was the right question. I heard, "You are a seer and a hearer."

This might be a good time to explain what "heard" looks like. When God created me, he created a special place inside of me where my heart and mind connect. Often times, people refer to this place as our imagination. Christians often see it as a dangerous place to hang out, but those without that religious upbringing can utilize that place easily and tap into all the creativity of the One who made them. This is where I hear The Trinity when He speaks. My spirit knows how to connect with Trinity, and my imagination puts pictures to what my spirit is picking up. The video that plays through my mind, through the pictures my imagination has created, from what my spirit is sensing is what I call "hearing".  Maybe I should call it "seeing".

This brings me back to what I felt Daddy was saying to me, "You are a seer and a hearer."  When I hear a statement like that, from the One who created everything, I know that is not only a fact, but an invitation. He's telling me how He sees me because He's inviting me to go on a journey. When the creator of the universe lets you know what He sees in you, He's also letting you know what He created in you. If He put it in you, it serves a purpose. To find the purpose, you go on a journey of discovery with Him. He never takes you someplace He hasn't already prepared you to go. If He's leading the journey, then I know it's safe to follow. This is one of the places we call M.O.R.E. (Moving Out Radically Encountered, Moving Out Responsibly Equipped, and Moving Out Relationally Encouraged... any way you look at it, you're "moving out"!). The question remains, do I want to go or am I satisfied remaining status quo? If you know me at all, you know I'm an adventure girl. I want to go!

So, where are we going and why? Those are questions that remain unanswered at this point. Apparently, they aren't important right now. What was important was what He said, "You are a seer and a hearer." These are the words I'll need to keep in mind and refer back to every step I take into the unknown. These words become the anchor He's given me to keep me from feeling like I've just stepped off the edge of a cliff. These are the phrases that let me know He has something He's intentionally partnering with me in.

The churning in my spirit has now become more of an excitement. I now know that today is the beginning of something new.